“I by no means allowed myself to.”
Colton Underwood made headlines on Wednesday after coming out as gay throughout an interview on “Good Morning America.”
Underwood, who was “The Bachelor” on season 23 of the hit ABC collection after showing on Becca Kufrin’s season of “The Bachelorette,” opened up about what he is searching for in a accomplice going ahead.
“I’ve nonetheless have not had an emotional reference to a person. I by no means allowed myself to,” the 29-year-old actuality TV star informed Robin Roberts. “It is by no means been in my playing cards to let myself get there. I wish to greater than something.”
“I am searching for somebody who can push me and problem me in all the good methods,” Underwood emphasised when requested what he is searching for in a accomplice. “I nonetheless have an extended methods to go. I am nonetheless studying.”
Throughout Colton’s tell-all interview, he mentioned determined to come back out now was as a result of he bought to a spot the place he “would’ve reasonably died than say, ‘I am homosexual,'” which he known as his “wakeup name.”
“There was a second in L.A. that I awoke, and I did not assume I used to be gonna get up. I did not have the intentions of waking up, and I did. I believe for me that was my wake-up name. Like, that is your life, take again management,” he defined. “Past that — even simply suicidal ideas. I am driving my automobile near a cliff, like, ‘Oh if this goes off the cliff, it is not that large of a deal.’ I do not really feel that anymore.”
In March of 2019, Colton and Cassie Randolph made it official after he gave her the ultimate rose throughout his season of “The Bachelor.” The 2 stayed collectively for over a yr. Throughout that point he revealed a e book known as “The First Time,” the place he thanked the fact present for serving to him verify his attraction to girls.
After the 2 cut up, Cassie accused Colton of monetizing the breakup for a brand new chapter in his e book. She filed a restraining order in opposition to him, accused him of stalking her, monitoring her automobile, and harassing her and her buddies from an nameless cellphone quantity. All costs had been finally dropped.
On “GMA,” Colton mentioned his emotions for Cassie had been actual, however he additionally felt the necessity to apologize to her.
“I liked every little thing about her, and it is arduous for me to articulate precisely what my feelings had been in going by means of that relationship together with her as a result of I clearly had an inside struggle occurring,” he mentioned. “I might simply say that I am sorry from the underside of my coronary heart. I am sorry for any ache and emotional stress I prompted. I want that it would not have occurred the way in which that it did. I want that I had been brave sufficient to repair myself earlier than I broke anyone else.”